What do you write in response to such a tragedy as what happened in Las Vegas? I don’t know, but I do know listening to the stories on the news all day brought tears to my eyes. I am saddened for those that lost someone close to them and those that had fear brought into their lives for no reason than one man’s choices.

I have the unfortunate experience of losing someone close to me in an accident and I know firsthand that peace is hard to find. I have no idea how someone makes sense of this/any loss in their lives. I am proud, and saddened that people were forced into heroic roles in the face of this senseless act. It’s a double edged sword, the community is reaching out to one another in a sense of togetherness in a response that makes me happy, and yet so sorrowful for those who were injured and those whose families lost someone dear to them.

Just thinking of those people reminds me of the day I found out about my sister’s car accident. It was a beautiful day, unusually warm and sunny. My phone had been ringing off the hook, but I didn’t hear it because I was working in my garage, getting it cleaned up for winter. When I finally checked it, my phone rang again in my hand, and the first words I heard were, “Becky’s dead.” I laughed. I will never forget that I laughed, I thought my Mom was joking because things like this don’t happen. Then she continued, “There was an accident, the girls were in the car.” And I remember almost nothing else for awhile. I screamed, no, over and over, I throw up until I couldn’t anymore. I screamed some more. I fell to the floor, I sat on the couch, I stood in the stairwell. What was I supposed to do now? I sat cross-legged on my bed waiting for my death, sure it was coming soon. I felt like I was dying, so I was sure it was going to happen – and I listened to my phone ring and people leaving messages, unable to answer, unable to move.

There are new people out there now that have their first memory of hearing the news. My heart aches for them. My heart aches for anyone that has to get that kind of news. What can you say to them?

I am so sorry for your loss.

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