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Breaking The Habit

I smoke.

There, I said it I admit it. That’s the first step to recovery isn’t it?

Now I just need to quit it.

I’d love to say I’m going to go out and do it right now. Throw out the last of my pack, but…that would likely be a lie. I am going to finish my pack – enjoy the hell out of the last few cigarettes, then quit.

And then the pain comes…

The headaches, the insomnia, hopefully none of these will be too bad as I really haven’t been smoking long this time.

Notice how I said, “this time?” Yeah, that’s right I’ve smoked before, and for a fairly long time. The agony.

Smoking sucks. I’ll be the first to admit it. I hate it.

But…

I also crave it.

The smell stinks, you get judged for it, and by golly no one smokes anymore if you haven’t noticed. People are trying to get healthy.

Why?

Well, I guess we want to live forever or something – I don’t know.

This however is what motivates me to quit:

  1. I won’t stink.
  2. My car won’t stink.
  3. My clothes won’t stink. (ok, you get the picture – smoker’s – well we stink and we usually don’t even know it.)
  4. I won’t be gasping for breathe next time I climb those stairs.
  5. My lungs will get pretty again.
  6. I won’t have to sneak around trying to hide the fact that I am smoking again from 90% of the people around me.
  7. I won’t be spending a fortune on a terrible habit that ultimate leads to death.
  8. I’ll smell nice. (Yes, I know we are back to that, but man is that ever important!)
  9. I don’t want to be a smoker. I want to be a nonsmoker. I want to be part of that club.
  10. One cigarette, leads to another cigarette, leads to another, and pretty soon you are chain smoking. Yuck, who wants that?

I think that’s enough listing.

The point is I am quitting.

I am going to go smoke my very last cigarette as soon as I hit publish and toss the pack out.

It is going to happen.

I promise you.

Hell, I promise ME!

This relationship with nicotine is ending!

I’ll let you know how it goes.

Tomorrow is DAY 1 – 0 cigarettes.

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